The lesson

Hi friends. Hope you are doing good. Well its quite a long time back that I wrote something here. I felt like sharing whatever is going on my mind and the condition I am facing in my life. Well  I am 20 and now I really think that I can understand the real intentions of people around me. Intention is not that criminal one but still normal things which we face... Saying something else and thinking something else. It doesn't really matters when when the people who are not really important in our life do it to us or behave weirdly with us but I really affects and stays with us for a really long time when a person who is really special in your does that. It happened with me also and the worst part.. Many of them did that at the same time. I really felt bad. It seemed as if they don't have any respect for me. It seemed that I was worthless to the. It seemed like I was only there to agree to their opinions . It seemed like I just knew too many people around me. I was not treated as a friend. I always wanted to be good to everyone. There were times when I was also angry but I never shouted at anyone. In fact, I wanted to make everything clear with civilized talks. But as they say, God also puts forward the toughest situations to teach you something. He put forward that situation. I used to remember everyone's birthday may it be friends or family. But destiny chose something else for me. I want to share this with you because I cant keep this to myself anymore. My mind feels really saturated right now and I just feel like spitting it out. Actually I have some 5 or 6 friends who are really special to me. They  are not best friends (I wonder if I will have even one or not) but still we sit together. it was my birthday last month and I thought that even I will be given a special treatment on my special day. My family wished me in the morning which was a good start for the day but when I reached my college, things changed. I went there expecting that my friends would wish me. I went there and they asked for some notes. I thought that they will give me a surprise but no. Actually I am not a really good student but generally I make notes. But that day, I didn't. Obviously I was excited for my big day. When they came to know that I didn't prepare notes, they just went to their different world. They started shouting at me bla bla and what not. If it would have been a normal day, I would,t have felt so bad but then on my birthday, I don't deserve to be treated like this. We had 2 lectures that day. Both lectures were done and I didn't talk to them even once. Nor they were interested. I came back home and locked myself in my bathroom. You guessed it right I was crying. Obviously I didn't want my parents to know this but I was really kind of depressed. I really questioned God " Why me on my birthday?"  But the worst was yet to come. I really had a good friend from my school. I thought he would wish me at least,,, But but but... He remembered that it was my birthday but he refused to call me and wish. He just gave a really fake reason for not calling me and I understood it. Even I left the whatsapp conversation politely. :( :(

I was really depressed thinking that I was not really important in anyone's life but then my this conception broke at the end of the day. All my family members and relatives in some way or the other form round the world wished me and tried to make my day really special. They treated me like their little princess. They pampered me and whoever were in the city came t my residence. They lifted up my mood.

That day I understood one thing.. It is a fact that your friends cam never take the place of your family because the moment you become a competition to your friends, they leave or misbehave with you but family doesn't. Family always stands with you in all situations. They are genuinely happy when you achieve something and they genuinely stand with you in your bad times.

Well I think God wanted to teach me this lesson. It took some time for me to understand it but finally I understood.....